Two is better than one? 3:12 PM Share

Should I stay in silence because I can't live without you...

or

Should I speak because I love you?

Counting Sleep 7:17 PM Share

I know of bridezillas. I know the pressures of getting married. I know most of the time, it will be a one-man (or woman) effort. I know of people saying that it will all be worth it in the end.

What they don't know is how I feel and what I have to put up with, just to get married.

One piece of advice, if you're getting married, make sure he's really the one. That despite all the bickering and picking faults, through all the disagreement and debate, that at the end of it you should still be feeling madly in love, the kind that climbs over the highest mountain and crosses the deepest ocean.

For some reason, for me it's like the highest mountain of obstacles and deep-trench oceans infested with sharks, that end up leaving me feeling just frustrated, disappointed and down-right un-bride-ful and un-excited about the whole wedding.

There's a reason why I didn't hire a wedding planner to arrange the whole deal. I just want to have a wedding that I've always wanted. It's not like its a over-the-top, grand wedding. I know what I can and cannot afford. Plus, it's my money.

So if I want to buy an expensive cocktail/goblet glass (again), then I will.

I cannot understand how men can always take (wedding) planning/preparation so lightly. They would laugh to scorn when we panic at a tiny mishap of a detail in a wedding preparation. They'd mock our choices in decor, colors, fabrics, gifts, our thoughts and opinions, and all the being that is us.

And they claim to want to vow, "..till death do us part.."

...or something like that. Pardon me, I'm not seeing the romance in wedding as of right now.

And what is with the obsession of taking the short-cut or the convenient way? If I really wanted a hassle-free wedding without the formalities and all, I wouldn't bother myself with dresses and pre-wed photos, gifts and reception a long time ago. Let's just write our vows on a post-it note and call ourselves "legally married".

It's a one-time event that I want to be done as how I want it. Not as how you think that would be convenient for YOU. If I wanted only guests of only 300, then I meant 300, not 400. If I said I wanted to pick my own wedding ring, a ring that I'm to wear for the rest of my life, then make sure I'd be able to make that choice.

I know that I haven't been "asking for help" from anyone, that I've been mostly preparing by myself. And, really, I'm okay with that. I don't like "outsourcing" important matters like my own wedding. I just wish others would stop thinking or assuming I'm wasting my time not preparing for the wedding, just because they're not helping me with anything.

I'm handling it. And it's going fine. I promise to scream like a banshee when it's not.

Like any bride, I want my wedding day to be the best day. But if you keep at your attitude to me as they are, then please don't take photos of me on my wedding day because it'll show on my face of my weeping heart.

Sensing a "Thunderbolt"-Upgrade Need 10:18 AM Share

Despite fulfilling wishlist no. 1, Apple tech has done it again for me, whipping out an even greater temptation.

27-inch iMac Thunderbolt

The newest hoop-la wonder from the ever-growing range of iMac, equipped with Thunderbolt ports and FaceTime HD feature, and an even sickening 3x faster graphic performance.

I sense a need for an iMac-upgrade in the near future....till they seduce me with a newer form of temptation.

Mini-buns cheeks - Not THAT kind! 6:00 AM Share

This blog is literally on the verge of becoming another net waste, joining several million others who have failed to periodically update.

And I'm not denying it. My excuses may sound like the cliche-d justifications but really I have been really busy with real life. I did say I'm a full-time me, meaning I live in the real world in real time with real job and things. There is only so many a moment when I get to delve into surreality of the blogosphere and write/blog as my mind/heart would serve it.

With that said, I will try to get something in here every now and then, especially now that I'm in the process of planning a wedding - GASP!

I'm still looking for something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue...

Oh and did I tell you already that I've been trying to go on a diet so I can fit into them size S gowns...?

From the looks of them cheeks, I'd say a D minus for effort!

i-Love 11:53 PM Share

Wishlist No. 1 - check!

Utmost =D

RSA Animate – Changing Education Paradigms 1:00 PM Share

I first watched a video of Ken Robinson animatedly talking about how education system diminishes creativity in school children and I immediately became a "follower" of his philosophy. The RSA video link below is another of his inspiring and eye-opening treatment to our consciousness, challenging us to "challenge" the normed paradigms of today's education system.

Watch for a lil' dose of Ken!

It's a Familiar Foreign... 11:59 PM Share

So maybe I had it coming.

I'd signed out early. But could you really have blamed me for it?

Because of a chicken or a blade, you had to scream at me, accuse me and treat me as nothing more than a person in your midst.

Lately, it has been silent. I blend well with silence, I do. But could you have ever imagined the thunderous chaos that have been tumultuously but placidly settling, deep right down in the pits of my stomach?

It's a familiar foreign, but nothing as much as now.

I do rejoice in the fact that soon you'll be in your new life. I take a back seat in the moments of your bonds with the people you have "chosen" to keep, and take with you on your journey. The ribbons, the flowers, the dresses, the trivial squabbles over what shades of reds and greys will flourish your day - I watch and I listen but I'm not with it.

Maybe I'd signed out early - but did you ever think that maybe, just maybe, I would like to tell you that ruby red is the best?

Home is all decked out - couches moved to make way for an arch of new life, pictures of the family framed and placed ever so affectionately to show the world. But they're not so much of my presence, flowers and frames not so much of my touches.

I'd signed out early - and my home is only a house.

Maybe you didn't know. So I can't blamed you that I'm not there to get our nails buffed and hair tousled together, or bundle flowers and carry tissue in my mini-purse. I just cannot blamed you for feeling serenely pleasant to have them but not me in everything. Maybe because you decided you were going to sign out of my life anyways.

Maybe I had it coming.

Wotever! 9:54 PM Share

Something I picked up while power-shopping/spending at The Mall with The Boyfriend...

I have my reasons... 10:00 PM Share

I know I haven't been writing here. I have my reasons.

To add to that, I'm deactivating my social networking, too. I have my reasons.

I will come back, someday. Maybe even sooner than expected. But till then, it's a shutdown for now.

I have my reasons.

11/1/11 @ 1:11 1:11 AM Share

I'm seeing a lot of 1s today,right now...